I just want to get back posting in this website, because this website is blocked in my country last year, i was really feel unmotivated to upload in here, because it took a lot of work to be able to at least open the site, but now everything is good, i could try upload again, still it would be difficult for me to keep up with everything.

I shouldn't put to much of my time, on some video games.

I know i need keep studying and learning how to work and get money while I'm still alive.

But i procrastinate alot with video games because typing words all day on the keyboard makes my head feels dizzy.

I also know that all i have to do is change the time to play video games with my time to do something.

But my hobby don't give me that much of happiness.

I just don't feel making something gave me anything. Mentally,

My works doesn't feel appreciated, or even noticed, even i can't appreciate my own works.

Well at least i've accept the reality long time ago,

I guess my best ability is to accept anything.

My friend just gave me this drawing.

Omg, I really love it ❤

I don't know what else to do, lol.

I've draw for a few years and i still can't get anything from it.

I knew somebody out here may draw longer than me and don't get anything.

I'm a university student and can't even stay alive with my own part time job money. I kept feel embarrassed with my friends.

I know i can ask parents for money, but they can't barely make theirs own money.

I know it sounds like a bagging 😰

And i felt like a burden.

I just thought about what to do with my arts, they're not that great, and i can't really create them fast enough.

After all, i just draw them with my cheap Android phone.

Maybe i could make a commission about it. But i'm afraid that i'm not good enough.

I don't know if drawing with any other tool going to make a difference,

i'mma save some money to buy a laptop.